Whom have I in heaven but You? And earth has none I desire besides You!

Well I am having problems with not being able to copy and paste any of the verses that I want to share. Nothing is working and my other computer bit the dust today!!



My birthday is exactly a month from today! Another one. I am not really looking forward to them anymore. I sort of feel like I am running out of time...you know? There have been so many things I have wanted to share and can't get my blog issues worked out. Anyway, this time of year can bring up so many things in ones heart and mind. At times I know that peoples bodies (hearts) just ache from loneliness. It could be the loss of a loved one, or the death of a relationship yet the person is still living, division with a family member, distance between friends. The list is endless. We just long to be whole, not lacking anything. I pray that when you feel that ache in your heart that you will turn to Christ and ask Him to fill you. I was reading these verses tonight and could just sense the passion in the writers voice. He loves the LORD because the LORD heard his voice. He heard his cry for mercy. The word in the Hebrew for heard is a word meaning to pay attention to, to hear, to give undivided attention. In a world where we are literally in competition for any ones attention, praise God that He hears us. That the God that IS, WAS, and IS TO COME, who never had a beginning, who is infinitely wise and Holy, God Creator of heaven and earth---HEARS you and me. Little you and little me. When we call out to God for mercy He hears us! It amazes me.
Nothing against Rod but it is just plain hard to get the mans attention. I will never forget one morning several years ago I was still in my jammies and I was finishing any remaining thoughts that I had on my lesson for Sunday School. Nothing excites me and makes me nervous at the same time like teaching. So, I rush upstairs to get ready knowing that this was going to have to be one of the quickest showers of my life to make it to church on time. So, Rod says to me, "babe, you look nice today." I replied, "Rod did you even look at me? I am still in my pjs?" Rod then says, "WHAT! You aren't ready yet!?! You need to hurry!"
Then, there are times where I just want him to look me in the stinking eyes when he is talking to me (LISTEN with your eyes I say!). Eye contact is so important to me that I have a mirror on my visor that I pull down while I am talking to Morgan so I can look at her. There are times when he is on the computer, on his phone, reading something or watching TV, and I just don't want to have to compete to tell a simple story that should take two minutes and not 30. Now let me throw my dad under the bus for a minute. I will be talking to him then I know there is a point where he is no longer listening and I say, "dad I need you to repeat what I just said." He will tell me he doesn't know. God love him he just can't focus on conversation past 2 minutes. PRAISE THE LORD that He will never grow weary in our prayers to Him. We literally have His undivided attention. What a great and awesome omnipresent God we have... Seriously...that He can be attentive to you and to me at the same time and completely undivided.
Another phrase I was reading about the word heard is that He knows. He knows what we are saying when we don't even have the words to say it because He knows our hearts. Let's face it women are a complicated gender that I love! We want to be known and loved and desired. I love the woman at the well in John 4 (since I can't paste you will have to click on John 4). The woman says in verse 29 "Come, see a man who told me everything I ever did. Could this be the Christ?" He knew her, baggage and all, Jesus knew the cry of that woman's heart and met her there. What a relief to be loved by God when He knows everything we have ever done or will do. Just like when we can't get on with forgiving ourselves over something that we have truly been repentant over, yet Christ knew before the foundation of the world that we would commit that sin. He was the Lamb slain before the foundation of the world, yet we wallow in unbelief and scorn the forgiveness that comes from the Cross of Christ for our sins past, present, and future.
Then I love the woman who had been bleeding for 12 years reaching out in a desperate attempt to find healing. Can you just imagine how anemic this woman was? She had exhausted all of her resources trying to find healing. I am sure she was sort of an outcast. You can see some self-righteous people that probably wondered what grave sin she committed to be bleeding like that for so many years. I am sure she was judged beyond belief and under the levitical law was considered "unclean." Then she just throws herself at the Lord Jesus and touches His garment and is healed. CLICK HERE.
So my point is that God knows us. He longs for us to come to Him and allow Him to bind up our wounds and take rest in Him, find healing for our souls in Him. In our own personal desperation for whatever it is let us find our longings fulfilled in Him. Let's thank people and the world for letting us down because if they had not maybe we wouldn't have found Jesus and known Him in the way that we do or can. Why He is mindful of us I will never understand. When we have finished this race and fought the good fight I pray that all along all of our weaknesses would beckon us to know this to be true: Psalm 73:23-26
This world may let us down but let it be that there is none that compares to Him. None that we desire besides Him. He is our strength and our portion and no other will do.

2 years ago

THIS POST is from 2 years ago. I can't believe it! I have loved nothing more than being a mom to morgan! She is a ball of joy and has a "happy heart" as she calls it!!

I am having posting problems. I am trying to test.

I am so small yet He thinks of me

If God is for us who can be against us?

Isaiah 59:2 (New International Version)
2 But your iniquities have separated you from your God; your sins have hidden his face from you, so that he will not hear.


If God is for us who can be against us? But what if God is not for us because we have set ourselves up in opposition to Him with willful unrepentant sin?
God is love, but He is completely Holy, and we have been saved from His wrath if we are in Christ. He desires our holiness (1 Peter 1:16) because He is holy. No ego problem there He knows that sanctification means less harm to our souls.
Take it from me, please take it from me. I went through one of the worst seasons of sifting that I have had in my entire life. I DO NOT EVER want to go there again. The Lord allowed the enemy to come against me and sift me like wheat. Why? Because I had some junk that needed to go. He will always give us a chance to humble ourselves. Out of His great love He will discipline His child if they persist in disobedience. The other day I was telling Morgan something she needed to do and she was being so stubborn. I looked at her and said, "CHILD, I am not talking to hear myself speak!" Don't you know God is saying that over us at times? He is telling us through His word, and the Holy Spirit, and maybe even other people something that we need to flat out QUIT for our good and others and He is not just telling us to hear Himself talk.
I have been reading about King Uzziah you can read it for yourself in 2 Chronicles 26. He becomes king at the age of 16 and reigns for more than a few decades. As long as he seeks the LORD, God gives him success. Yet we see later where his pride leads to his downfall. As most of you know he becomes proud. Most likely he bought into his own press and really believed he was "the king." He clearly loses sight of any accountability. Even the most powerful leader needs accountability. We all need it, but how many of us have anyone that is in our life that is calling us to run harder after Jesus and someone who calls us out or doesn't let us get away with the status quo? That doesn't mean getting in someones face necessarily but more like friends that are both living before the face of God together, doing life together, praying together.
So check out Uzziah in verse 16:
16 But after Uzziah became powerful, his pride led to his downfall. He was unfaithful to the LORD his God, and entered the temple of the LORD to burn incense on the altar of incense.
80 priests rush in to confront him and he becomes angry. His attitude was one that truly felt he was above reproach. No one was going to tell him anything. ....BUT God...
The Lord afflicted him with leprosy and it says that indeed he was eager to leave the sanctuary. He then leaved alone with leprosy. Then this was what was remembered of him: "for people said, "He had leprosy."
As humans we have a tendency to dwell on the bad and the falls that people have in life instead of any good that they did.
Bottom line pride led to his fall. I could go on with examples but I am running out of time.
I can't stand when people try to argue that the Old Testament is not relevant. What in the world? How could we even glimpse the holiness of God without the Old Testament!
So, God's word says that He opposes the proud but gives grace to the humble:
1 Peter 5:5-9

5Young men, in the same way be submissive to those who are older. All of you, clothe yourselves with humility toward one another, because, "God opposes the proud but gives grace to the humble." 6Humble yourselves, therefore, under God's mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time. 7Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.
8Be self-controlled and alert. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. 9Resist him, standing firm in the faith, because you know that your brothers throughout the world are undergoing the same kind of sufferings.

Really quick the part of submission in verse 5 means to willfully submit, and the word for humility means in the greek to think in correct estimation of oneself. We are so often in opposition in competition to one another even among Christians...strife, envy, jealousy it is all so rampant. So, we are told in Phil 2 to in humility consider one another better than ourselves. Jesus Christ was equal with God but did not consider equality with God something to be grasped. He took on the humble position of a slave and humbled Himself and became obedient to death on a criminals cross. The Lord of Glory, the spotless Lamb. How much more should we humble ourselves?
So, God opposes the proud. This is a greek word where God really arranges Himself in battle against the proud and arrogant. Um, if you are in battle with God who do you think is going to win? Not you. The greek for proud here means arrogant, proud, or the rejection of God. How often to we deny or scorn His counsel merely hearing the word but not obeying willfully. That is pride and must be dealt with. The passage goes on to say that He gives grace to the humble. Humble means lowly of mind, poor, and piety toward God. Reverence toward God. He will fight our battles for us and alongside of us but not if we are going at it on our own. So verse six tells us to humble ourselves under God's mighty hand, that He may lift us up in due time. The greek word for humble there means to humble, to bring yourself low. Get on your face for crying out loud! Repent of your pride. PRAY for godly sorrow that leads to repentance. Willful submission to God. So there we have it. He is a gentleman and will give us a chance to humble ourselves but if we do not He, out of great love will humble us. Oh Lord, let it be that we choose to bend the knee to Him. He is worthy. Just like in Deut. 30:19 This day I call heaven and earth as witnesses against you that I have set before you life and death, blessings and curses. Now choose life, so that you and your children may live. He is not a glorified puppet master. He gives us a choice. Choose Him. I promise nothing good comes from going your own way. We desperately need God's presence to go with us. What else will distinguish us from everyone else? Just like God's chosen people were in captivity so many of us are to. God intends for greater things and victorious living in the life of His children.

Love-



ps I am having trouble posting and I have had a lot going on along with some migraines. Please pray for me as I seek to serve others in the word through teaching. Also, please pray for my health as well. =)

Breaking Free Updated Edition-Beth Moore

I just picked up Breaking Free fresh off the truck and checked in! GO HERE to view it!

This is so special to me for so many reasons.

1. It was my first bible study and call to freedom in Christ.

2. I did it 7 times that is how much junk I have had to deal with.

3. After 3 REALLY hard sifting years in my life...the LORD Jesus landed me at the taping in New Orleans for the updated edition. It is so good.

Completely new dvd sessions and an updated workbook!!

I AM SO EXCITED!!!!

Wow this is what happens when I don't blog for a while

Proverbs 4:23 (New International Version)
23 Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life.

Proverbs 4:23 (English Standard Version)
23Keep your heart with all vigilance, for from it flow the springs of life.

My child is my constant little shadow and there are just times where I need to get on the floor and pray but I can't really say what I need to get out in prayer with her there. Things that are just too personal. So, she will say: "Mommy, what are you doing on the floor?" To which I reply, "baby I am praying in my heart to God." The other day she asked me and I quote, "Mom why is your booty sticking in my face?" Because I was just on my knees...not prostrate. Then, we went to pray over the classrooms that I teach in and she in an exasperated voice said, "MOM WHAT ARE WE DOING!" I told her and she just said, "mom, I will pray in my heart."

I love this verse about Hannah's prayer:

1 Samuel 1:13 (New International Version)
13 Hannah was praying in her heart, and her lips were moving but her voice was not heard. Eli thought she was drunk...

With Eli's accusation she goes on to say, "I was pouring out my soul to the LORD." So, yes God who knows the heart, and searches the mind hears our hearts when we pray. There are times to cry out in prayer, times to just groan in prayer, and times to fall on our face. There are also times when I journal in prayer but there are times where I want no written record of what I am praying...I only want it coming from the tablet of my heart to the God who can read it. Just He and I.

So, the apple doesn't fall far from the tree and I have a VERY stubborn child. I was known for my sarcasm growing up. I am not saying that I am proud but let's just say my child is the spitting image of me at times.

We are in the car after school and I asked her if she ate her lunch, to which she told me no because her cheese and pepperoni (not pizza) were in the same bag touching. I was like Morgan come on! I can't believe you. To which she looked and said, "Mom, I am saying Oh well to you in my heart." I think she thought as long as it was in her heart and she was just vocalizing what was already there that there was no need for trouble (which trouble really starts brewing in our hearts and minds...amen!). Then, she showed me her work for the day and I have to admit it really bothers me because she is a perfectionist. When I say that I mean that if she is going to do something she wants it to be perfect the first time. So, she has a sheet of paper where I can see she has traced her name and then there is a line for her to write her name all on her own and I see a huge black spot of crayon. I knew immediately that she got mad and took her attitude to paper and made huge scratch marks over the name she tried to write.

I am so bad to fail myself in my mind before I start something so I really need to continue in prayer for her over this and myself. I then said, "Morgan! You got mad because you couldn't write your name perfect and you scratched it out as fast as you could, didn't you?"

"Mom," she said, "I got mad to it in my heart and scratched it out!"

She is just getting to where it came from. Her heart. The seat of her emotions. There is no worse worldly advice than to say: "follow your heart." Now, if you are seeking God and you are truly delighting in Him, He will become your desire. His ways will become the desires of your heart. If you are a true worshipper of God it will permeate into everything that you do. Not to say we will ever reach perfection we are just in that daily process of sanctification as we seek Him.

So all of this is to say I have been listening to some of the things that I have been saying lately and I have been so upset at the clear condition of my heart. As children of God we are called to be a royal priesthood, a holy people set apart to God (1 Peter 2). We are called to declare the praises of the one who brought us out of the dominion of darkness and into the kingdom of light...the kingdom of the Son He loves. We are heirs and co-heirs with Christ but if out of the heart the mouth speaks what is the barometer of our life really like. In the dark of night, who are we really? Who are we really when we are all alone before God.

I don't know about you but I just plain get sick of myself. I am miserable if I have the knowledge of what God wants me to do and I am not doing it. Praise God for the Holy Spirit within us that causes that unrest over sin. God has saved us from His wrath not just to live at status quo. He is holy and our lives are to be a fragrant aroma, pleasing to Him and a sign to the lost of this world.

I have been studying about when Moses was on the mountain in Exodus 32:15-26, and he was receiving the law and as you know the people that God delivered out of Egypt got tired of waiting on Moses (their leader) and decided together with Aaron to throw all the plunder they had received into the fire and make a golden calf to worship. Clearly, the people were following Moses and not God if they rebelled that quickly and decided to worship a stinking golden calf. Especially after all God had done to lead them, tend to them, and provide for them. Our hearts are so prone to wander. So, an angry Moses comes down the mountain, breaks the tablets, asks why Aaron led them into such great sin. Idolatry is such great sin and I pray that you and I would still see it that way. Idolatry is destructive. Anything that we think about more, love more, serve more, it is an idol. Believe me I have had my share in idolatry and it betrayed me every time. Our hearts are only safe when they are set fully upon God. There is wholeness, which is part of the greek word for integrity, when our hearts are fully committed to Him. Idols will fail us every time but God will never fail us. Man this scene gets really graphic when you see how Moses burns the calf immediately, grinds it to powder, pours it over the water and makes the Israelites drink it. He is like: LOOK WHAT THIS CALF CAN DO FOR YOU. You want it! you got it now drink it. Then, you see Aaron pass the buck and a war is about to break out that is how serious God took this. The peoples hearts were not set on the Lord but when Moses cries out for the people to make a decision and says "Whoever is for the LORD, come to me." We see that it was the Levites (Moses was a Levite) that rally to him. That is when the Levites become set apart and they get no allotment of land because they are the Lord's chosen people and priesthood. The Lord is their portion because they chose the Lord. Then, the bloody scene takes place. I can not even imagine but y'all idolatry will be the death of us and cost us our very lives. It makes us sick spiritually and sometimes even physically. I have prayed for a while, "LORD, please show me when I am feeling empty that it is an invitation for You to fill me." Otherwise, I will find something to fill me. I hope you understand what I am saying but so often we are looking for a person or possession or something to meet the need that only God can tend to. We are wise to let all others off the hook and let God be God.

So, in my own assessment lately I am like, "God why would I trade your Glory for another? Something cheap that is not You? Why would I seek to drink out of broken cisterns that hold no living water?" I was appalled at a couple of things I said lately that came straight from a heart that needed to be tended to. I hung up the phone the other night and couldn't believe myself! I had to humble myself and ask for forgiveness immediately as the Spirit of God, that I am sure I was quenching, was grieved within me.

Some of the things I have struggled with lately maybe wouldn't seem like a big deal to you but they are to me and God. He just convicts us in different areas. What may be permissible for you, may not be beneficial for me and likewise.

So here are some verses I am thinking on about what to set my heart on and what not to set my heart on. We clearly need God to do a transforming work in our hearts that will change our actions and our attentions.

2 Chron 19:3- Set your heart on seeking God.

Psalm 119:30- Set your heart on Gods law (His word). Apply your heart to understanding and meditating on God's word.

Psalm 119:32-by running to do His will, in the path of His commands, He will set our hearts free.

I got an email from a lady at our church that is in her 70's and y'all she is precious and loves Jesus. She loves people. She asked me to go to her hair place and invite a girl to church and I knew that even though it was not really convenient for me to drive there, that I had to go then while my heart was sensitive or I would not be obedient if I didn't hurry to obey. The lady wasn't there but I left a card and I think it had more impact on the man working there then anything. We won't always see fruit of our obedience but we obey anyway. If we don't obey quickly, chances are we won't. Our sometimes good intentions are just good intentions. Can I get a witness? That is my problem a lot.

Psalm 119:112--set your heart on keeping His decrees to the very end.

Malachi 2:2--set your heart to honor His name in whatever you do.

Colossians 3:1--Since, then, you have been raised with Christ, set your hearts on things above, where Christ is seated at the right hand of God.

1 Peter 3:5--But in your hearts set apart Christ as Lord. Always be prepared to give an answer to everyone who asks you to give the reason for the hope that you have. But do this with gentleness and respect,

Some things not to:

Psalm 62:10--Though your riches increase, do not set your heart on them.

Jeremiah 22:17--Do not set your heart on dishonest gain, shedding innocent blood, oppression or extortion.

Luke 12:29 And do not set your heart on what you will eat or drink; do not worry about it.

We can be so used to hearing a great word, walking away, and never applying it. Raise your hand if you are guilty like me. LORD, break our hearts that we would be sensitive to You. We only get one go at this life let us live for You, for freedom and holiness. God in a world of idols, You be our portion the Only Wise King enthroned on our hearts. Take all of us LORD. We are dangerous on our own. Let us apply ourselves to your word Lord. May we be bound to You in freedom and liberation that comes from the Holy Spirit and from a life yielded to You. LORD, may our lives be a living sacrifice. Just like the levites were a gift to the people may we be a gift of Your grace and mercy and testimony to Your saving power to those around us. We can't fool You Lord...let us be wholeheartedly Yours smash our idols before they break us to pieces.

One more thing because I could go on but I took this picture a few weeks ago. Morgan is handing out scripture cards to her friends for Halloween (her idea...the kids will love that! LOL but she is giving candy). She took some for share day already and when she picked this box up the bottom fell out. Immediately I thought LORD, when the bottom falls out in our own life, let Your word be what flows from our hearts.

Let's face it, we are bent on rebellion in our own sinful nature. Our hearts are not toward God on our own. Lord, please help us. Please God let us yearn for You. Not a person, not a thing, not possessions but God You. We are desperate. Like Daniel the world wanted to rename him and his friends and make a mockery of Your Name, let us resolve not to defile ourselves. If anyone has half of my past record they will know that leaving the God they love breeds iniquity and shame. Thankfully, You take us back and You are merciful, but God You are Holy and You desire for us to be Holy. Let us be men and women that can be entrusted with Your work and let us bear Your Name and You be honored. So often I have brought reproach on Your Name, with great regret. Save us from ourselves. Let us live and walk in the Spirit Lord. We need You! Give us a heart to love You Lord.

If the Lord did nothing else for us, let us cry Your presence Lord is all I want even if it is the death of me.

Matthew 6:33But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.

random off the wall: I got a little critical spirit when I kept seeing a ton of misspelled words (like me of all people should be the spell check police) and now I promise I am being humbled because I can't spell a thing lately.

Thank you for all two of you who read this blog! You are precious to me!

Further verses:

Romans 8:5Those who live according to the sinful nature have their minds set on what that nature desires; but those who live in accordance with the Spirit have their minds set on what the Spirit desires.Romans 8:4-6 (in Context) Romans 8
Colossians 3:2Set your minds on things above, not on earthly things.Colossians 3:1-3 (in Context) Colossians 3

1 Peter 1:13[ Be Holy ] Therefore, prepare your minds for action; be self-controlled; set your hope fully on the grace to be given you when Jesus Christ is revealed.

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Walk like an egyptian-kenley

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she was so proud of her door at school

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I love soccer!! Whatever.

Donna and I after bible study--love her

me and my sweet baby

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The twins and Dedra!

Adriene, Tiffany, Emily, me and Lavonda

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me again

hello

Just wanting to say hey and let you know that I have been experiencing some major fatigue and that is the reason why I have not blogged much. I have also tried to limit my computer time as I
was getting sucked into the world wide web abyss. I am trying to exercise some self-control when it comes to my time spent on the computer. The whole everything is permissible but not everything is beneficial is the thing I have had to keep in mind with facebook and all of the instant communication we have going on. I am doing pretty well with that Glory to God!!
I have been thinking a lot on some passages and want to share when I am coherent!!
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1 Samuel 15:22
22 But Samuel replied: "Does the LORD delight in burnt offerings and sacrifices as much as in obeying the voice of the LORD ? To obey is better than sacrifice, and to heed is better than the fat of rams.

Tonight I did something that only obedience could have demanded. I temporarily deactivated my facebook account. I wish that I was one of those people that could just exercise moderation in all things but facebook was just getting the best of me. I found myself wasting time, clicking through pictures, checking out feeds, and yes even comparing myself to others. On some peoples pages you can even see fights break out between couples and you can check back for the latest gossip. I still can't understand airing out all my relational problems on facebook, but people do it. I found myself just getting caught up in it. I even heard a child tell me that her mom did not have time to do certain things with her because she was busy playing mafia wars on facebook. We are all guilty of getting distracted but tonight when I was posed a question in bible study that had been pitched out before...I decided that more than anything I want Jesus. I don't want pseudo intimacy. I want Jesus. As I was deactivating facebook told me that my almost 1200 so-called friends were going to miss me...AS IF. Here is the question from tonight: What are you holding onto that is keeping you from Jesus that you are afraid to give up because it might cost you something? It wasn't that exact wording but you get the idea. I love people and I love communication but I was just on an overload. Not only that I had been wasting time on it and losing out on precious time that I could be spending with the Lord, or encouraging someone else. I have come to a point lately where I am sick to death of yours truly...me. Sick to death. After only three decades of living I really don't want to play around anymore. I am either in this thing with God wholeheartedly or not and I am sick of wavering and not giving Him my full attention. Please hear me this post is not a bull-horn for me to tell you what to do it is me explaining why I decided to temporarily disconnect. Because I was trying to stay so connected I was losing out on my main connection which is Christ Jesus. I want and need Him more than anything so tonight I was like LORD, whatever needs to go so I can seek Your face, I am ready to relinquish it. I thought of all of the prayer requests I am going to miss out on and the precious women on some of the threads we have going but then I was reminded that God works out everything according to the counsel of His will and if I am obeying Him that is all that matters. He will work the rest out. What a relief!
So, if anyone thinks that I blocked them...I didn't. I am just blocking myself ;). When you find yourself opening facebook before you open your bible maybe you have your priorities messed up...like I have. Whew!!